Confused....but not really

Why, Why do things have to be so confusing....why do there have to be so many strings, bells and whistles attached to things....I just wish life would sometimes just be plain and simple.....like black and white.....either what is, or what isn't.....but....I guess Jesus.....He knew his life's calling...plain and simple, and yet it had sooo many twists and turns, and probably involving some sleepless nights....probably a lot of surrendering, His needs and His wants....over to the Father.....and fulfilling His mission...which was clear to Him from the beginning....but how hard that would be...and to be able to do it WILLINGLY....truly His life was the ultimate sacrifice....the ultimate total surrender....daily giving His life, needs wants over to God Himself....I wish so badly in some situations that Jesus faced....I wish SO BAD that I could be a fly in the wall and actually see how He did it!!!!! I wish I could live how Jesus lived...and I can....the only things sometimes we have are the things that were left behind for us....which is the Bible....it clearly is the closest thing we have to getting a glimpse of who Jesus was...what He did...His mission, which is our mission to.....seek and safe the lost hurting people in the world and showing them Jesus.....I guess what I'm saying is when I get my eyes off Jesus my purpose becomes all clouded...and I lose focus...and I look around to things on this world and what people have and don't have....and when I look back to God...and follow Him more closely the things of the world don't matter to me......sometimes though my life....I feel a lot is like the tide....rising and falling.....the falling part stinks...but I think I need the part in my life...because it makes the rising part AWESOME to look back on....I dunno maybe no one else struggles with things....with serving Jesus 100% everyday....Looking to Him instead of looking to the world for answers in life....Life sometimes would be cool if every problem in the world could be solved in an instant...but I don't think we would lean on God...and trust in Him, when things are good and when things are bad.....there's a song.....the lyrics are "through it all....through it all....I've learned to trust is Jesus, I've learned to trust in God....through it all...through it all...I've learned to depend upon His Word.....Sometimes I need to hear those words like 10 times a day to help me get through the day....I gotta do more looking UP than looking OUT!!!!! Jesus help me to LOOK to You for all my needs....I came into this world with nothing...and nothing will I be able to take out....I need You now...more than ever before....Help me to fulfill the purspose and plan that You have for me....Thank you!!!! :)